As I sat in the chair, i watched as Connah tried to climb up the one next to me.
As she struggled, i reached over to give her a lift up.
She sat for a little bit, then hopped off to go play with something,
Then came back to get back on. So again I lifted her up.
And this happened over and over again.
Just before worship God dropped this ever so silently on me.
I've refrained from praying prayers like 'God come to me' or 'God where are you?' for I know that it was not a question about where He was,
but more a question of where I was.
I knew that He was already there, waiting for me to make my way down my end of the road.
But I was being so distracted trying to get there myself that God would not have to come the extra way to find me.
Somehow I had the mentality that God would make it halfway towards me, and I was meant to make the other half towards him.
Time and time again I fail, and I carry the guilt of not succeeding for having not tried hard enough.
But God said to me,
Here I sit on the chair, and here you are trying so hard to climb up the one next to me.
You struggle and struggle but as soon as I reach over to help you, you stop me, thinking this is the part you have to do on your own.
But Don't you see that to get a higher level, you will need My help?
I WANT to help you get on.
and even if you hop off after awhile and get distracted with something else,
I will be there to help you back on.
Let Me help you.
